Sometimes...Ya Know

I've been doing okay with my weight loss. I'm seeing numbers lower than ever so I'm happy about that. My exercise has become way more lax which I need to get onto my self for that. I've been doing really good on the food front because in an effort to start saving more money hubby and I have decided to start carrying our own lunches to work. It's okay...sometimes I get burned out on it though. Not to mention having to cook so much. It gets boring. I've been in a weird mood lately, so I've been feeling that thing of 'why should I even care'. I still doubt myself as to why I'm doing this. I know I want a baby, but thinking about babies doesn't get me pumped up for working out. I'm just tired I guess.

Wow it's been a week

Yes, it has been a week since I last posted. Things have been a little crazy around here. Works been a pain in the behind as usual, and my workouts have gotten a little more intense since I've added 20 minutes on the elliptical everyday now. So I'm trying to do 20 minutes on that which wipes me out, then I do 40-50 minutes on the bike...I usually can't make it to 50 anymore. Then I try to do weights if I'm not completely exhausted. Not to mention I've been taking on extra stuff, AND I'm sick again. Blah! But my weight is still going down. Yesterday it was at 293.9, today 295.5.

Okay if that's how you wanna play it.

So I did my measurements last night because I realized it was already the 25th. Almost everything has stayed the same. No more loss. (:-|) I guess I should be happy that I haven't put on inches. Well I did put on 1 inch on my calves, but I think that's all muscle. Does anybody have any suggestions about how to lose weight in your calves while not building man legs? My weigh in this morning was much more satisfying than previous ones. Down 1.4 pounds from yesterday. I think it had to do with my workout yesterday. I did the elliptical....for 20 minutes straight. That's my new record! After that I did the bike for 40 minutes at level 9 which is a level increased from what I'm used to. I think changing up my workout routine is really going to help me with this plateau. Plus I've been eating way more fiber. I think maybe I'll dig out my tae bo tapes and see what I can do. I would take a class at the gym but they all start after I would be done with my workout. Coming into work early and leaving early is good for working out on my own but I'm not able to do any group exercise unless I'm willing to wait 2 to 3 hours for the class. Things to ponder.

Grrr

My weight keeps inching up every morning. It's very discouraging. But I'm going to get through this. I just have to tough it out. I need to change up my routine. I need to watch what I eat. I say that because last night after the gym I ask hubby, you want Chinese? Sure. Enough said. I probably ate 2000 calories for dinner alone. Le sigh. I'm tired, and it's hard.....but I know I can do this! Snap out of it woman! You've lost so much already....you can take off all the weight! YEAH!

Plateaued

I've reached my first plateau in my weight loss. Hubby says it's because I'm putting on muscle and still losing weight. I think it's because I haven't been working out hard enough. According to a fitness website I was reading you need to burn 3500 calories + the amount of calories you take in daily to burn 1 pound of fat. Yesterday I did the bike for 50 minutes and burned 400 calories. Then I did weight machines which burned about 350 calories. How in the world am I going to make it to 3500 + 1500 when I can only do 750 calories at a time?! It's all right, I'll be fine. Just feeling a little discouraged is all.

I've started to add more fiber to my diet. I bought some fiber one yogurt and cereal bars from the grocery store this morning. The yogurt has 5g of fiber and the bars have 9g. That should hold me for a couple of days until I find more fiber-ish options. I've also decided to cut my caloric intake down to 1500 calories a day. At my current point value I have 39 a day, this change will cut me down to about 30 a day. Which is fine with me since I hardly ate all my points anyways. I just want to see the scale start falling instead of rising. I need a little something to rebuild my confidence.

Yeah...

So I've been in a funky mood for blogging/logging food lately. Saturday I had a fasting day for purposes of faith. I ate dinner that day, which was chicken and spinach quesadilla from El Chico's. Then on Sunday I ate a salad for lunch from Lonestar. I tried their steak and protabello mushroom half salad. It was so good and very filling. Then for dinner we went to eat at Barnhill's. I can't believe I ate that much. Two plates! Mostly cabbage, some green beans, some black eyed peas, some dressing, some broccoli cheese rice casserole, and baked chicken. Anyways, I didn't count points, or calories, I'm getting a little burned out on that whole thing. I'm just going to try and eat healthy and keep working out for awhile. And I did work out on Sunday. I worked my butt off. New weight posted. Down 1.4 pounds from last week. Wooo!

Blogging is getting hard

With all the financial planning I've been trying to do most of my time is devoted to researching those kind of matters instead of everything else that I'd like to do, like blog. But I'm doing all right. Yesterday was another one of those busy days at work, so I got a bit of a workout there. Then I went to the gym and exercised on the bike for 40 minutes. 312 calories burned. I wonder how long I would have to peddle to burn my daily calorie allowance. After the bike I did my oblique exercise and then I worked out my arms. I was pooped after all that. So when I got home I just heated up some leftovers for dinner.

Yesterday I ate:
Breakfast - Scrambled eggs, raisin bran, and half carton of 2% milk (7.5 pts)

Mid-day that wasn't really mid snack - Yoplait light fat free strawberry yogurt (2 pts)

Lunch - Grilled Chicken Caesar salad from Mcalister's with ranch (OMG 18!!! pts)

Mid-afternoon snack - Cheddar sunchips (4 pts)

Dinner - Spaghetti Squash with meat sauce (4.6 pts)

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - Scrambled eggs, raisin bran, Strawberry yogurt, half carton of 2% milk (9 1/2 pts)

Lunch - 11 oz. Chopped steak from Logan's, Broccoli, and 1 1/2 rolls (25 1/2)

Mid-afternoon snack - 2/3 of an order of French Fries from Podnuh's and 4 or 5 slices of brisket off my husband's plate (I don't know and I don't want to know)

Dinner - Grilled chicken tenders from Crackerbarrel, green beans, and pinto beans, and one corn bread (Ditto)

I'm feelin pretty good

I feel like yesterday really got me back on track. I went to the gym after work, I rode the stationary bike for 25 minutes and my legs started to hurt so bad. I didn't push myself beyond that, I don't want another time off exercise. After I worked out I went home and fixed Spaghetti Squash with meat sauce for dinner. It took FOREVER! Well maybe it just seemed like forever because not only did I wait until 7 (because I had my legs propped up) to start cooking but I also started the three bean turkey chili for tonight's dinner. I browned that meat first so I practically cooked two meals last night. After that my feet and legs were screaming at me. I don't know what made it hurt the worst, exercising after having not for four days or retaining water and swelling or spending an hour in the kitchen on my feet. And for some odd reason today my abs and back have sore muscles. Explain that!

Anyways, I hope I have time to exercise before church tonight. But if I do I may be all sweaty because I may not have time to take a shower. Hmmm, might have to risk it. On an off topic I was shocked at how many points one container is of yoplait blueberry yogurt. It's 4 pts! And it's 99% fat free! I may have to look into that Fiber One yogurt.

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - Scrambled eggs, raisin bran, half a carton of 2% milk (7 1/2 pts)

Lunch - 8" Sausage pizza from subway (whoppin 19 pts)

Mid-afternoon snack - TCBY small cup of soft serve White Chocolate Mousse yogurt (4 pts)

Dinner - Three bean Turkey chili 2 bowls (6 1/4 pts)

I do apologize

For the past several days I've been the world's worst at posting. Being sick is no excuse but it's all I got. I was sick, and hubby was out of town visiting his dad so I was a little depressed. Not to mention the eating...yes it was bad. Very, very bad. I ate a potato from Mcalister's for lunch on Saturday, spud max...the worst one for you. Then for dinner I ate pizza. Then Sunday for lunch I ate pizza, Sunday for dinner I ate pizza. There's still pizza in the fridge. I felt so guilty, but guilt isn't going to get me anywhere but into a shame spiral which will cause more depression. No more guilt I tell you. I have to get over it and move on. So today is me getting back on track. Healthy point counting eating and the gym after work. Oh that's another thing I haven't gone to work or the gym since last Thursday. I didn't even work out then I just used the steam room. But I'm moving on! Even with ALL this my Monday weigh in was still nice to me. I broke 300! 298.8. That's even with my monthly curse coming to visit.

I've been seeing a lot of people posting about their WW meetings and such, I feel like I'm missing out myself. I don't have that accountability of getting up infront of a group of people with the same goal as me and getting up on that scale. But does it make me stronger in the end if the only person I'm accountable to on the scale is me? Won't that help me more in my maintenance stage? I just wish that I had a close friend who was going through the same thing that I am. My boss/friend Debbie is trying to lose weight, but she's a tiny short 130. She always says that when she's around me it makes her want to be good, but I'm not sure how to feel about that. We occassionaly make it to the gym at the same time, but we don't work out together. It's not anything like a support buddy who tries to push you. If anything I'm always the one pushing her. I would invest in a trainer but so far I've heard that they aren't worth the money. Oh what to do, what to do.

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - (I was STARVING this morning) Scrambled eggs, sausage patty, raisin bran, whole carton of 2% milk (11 pts)

Mid-day snack - Cheddar Sunchips (3 pts)

Lunch - Roasted chicken breast on 6 inch wheat with mayo spinach and provolone cheese (9 pts) sour cream and onion Sunchips (5 pts)

Mid-afternoon snack - Curves 90 calorie mini bag of butter popcorn (1 pt)

Dinner - Spaghetti squash with meat sauce (5 pts)

Ugh

I have one word to say type: Laryngitis.

The coughing continues

Well I actually came to work today, loaded to the teeth with chloraseptic and cough drops and my prescription cough medicine. Take that whatever you are rattling around in my chest! Yesterday was not a good day. I did rather well with my food until hubby got home, and I guess he didn't want to cook so he suggested pizza. Oh sweet Lord my mouth started watering at the thought. I was in a weakened state and didn't feel like arguing...not to mention I wanted it just as much as he did. So last night we ate deep dish pizza, with double sausage, mushrooms, garlic parmesan sauce instead of marinara, and extra provolone cheese on top. It was sooooooo good. So you know it had to be bad for me. I probably ate my whole days worth of points just during dinner! But that's enough of that, I'm back on track today. I plan on visiting the steam room at my gym and maybe...MAYBE going for a swim, if my lungs will allow it.

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - Scrambled eggs, raisin bran, 2% milk (7 1/2 pts)

Sick again

The sore throat I had yesterday is full blown illness now. I barely have a voice and I'm coughing with a rattle in my chest. I stayed home from work and I'm not going to work out today. Yesterday when I tried to work out with my usual 50 minutes on the bike I could only do 10 minutes then 20 minutes then rest and another 20 minutes. I didn't even try to do weights. I just wanted to get home get dinner started, eat and go to bed.

*Groans*

Man does my mouth hurt. The dentist apparently did a number on me yesterday and I didn't even realize it was that bad. But now my jaw hurts where he shot me and my throat is sore, I keep coughing. Breakfast was tricky this morning since I couldn't open my mouth more than an inch. I hope this won't be lasting all day. Yesterday I didn't get a chance to go work out. After my dentist appointment at 3 it was 5:30 when I got out. Then my hubby was off work and at the chiropractor's. I waited there with him for my mouth to stop being numb. By then I was starving so we went to Red Lobster. I think yesterday was a "rest stop" day. One of those days that you take off for yourself to enjoy and you don't feel guilty about it later. And it can only last for one day. After we ate I went grocery shopping. So I feel like I got something good accomplished, even though I did play hooky from work. Today I am going to the gym for sure! My knee feels better, I'm off of caffeine and other than the occasional cough I feel great!

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - Scrambled eggs, Raisin bran, 2 % milk, medium banana (9 1/2 pts)

Mid-day snack - handful of cheddar sunchips (2 pts)

Lunch - Subway chicken noodle soup (2 pts) Barely any of a chicken spinach salad with mozzarella (2 pts) Another handful of cheddar sunchips (2 pts)

Dinner - Roasted curry chicken quarter, steamed garlic squash, and spinach and tomato couscous (7 pts)

I just don't know

I over slept today, and I felt so crappy that I decided to play hooky from work. My knee feels better at least. I'm catching up on laundry and chores around the place. For some reason I let it all go to hell in a hand basket. I also have a dentist appointment at 3 so I may not be able to make it to the gym today either. After the dentist I need to go grocery shopping with hubby. We're in desperate need of meats and more veggies. I updated my weight. Down 3.5 pounds. Wooo!

Ugh

Last night I had a rather rough night. Not only was my knee hurting and requiring to be iced, but I also got sick! I don't know why but all of a sudden nausea swept over me and that's all she wrote. Worst part is I had already taken all my nightly medicine. :-/ I would consider most of the points from my dinner sub-tractable after I got sick. So yesterday I was actually under points. I would be more concerned with being sick if I hadn't already been taking antibiotics for a week. Plus I don't feel bad. The only thing that I can complain about is my knee.

I didn't get up until 1 this afternoon. Feel kinda groggy because hubby let me sleep for so long. Needless to say I haven't gotten anything done today. I think I talked my hubby into going grocery shopping for us so we can have baked chicken tonight. Mmmm.

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast/Lunch - 4 sugar free chocolate chip girl scout cookies (4 pts.) 1/2 cup All bran, 1/8 cup raisins, and 1 cup 2% milk (5 pts)

Ow

For some reason I woke up this morning and my right knee is hurting something awful. It's probably the way I slept. I knew I didn't hurt it yesterday working out. Hopefully I can work out the kink in my knee so I can go to the gym without any complaints.

I've made a decision about my weigh ins. I have decided that I will only use my morning weight to track my weight lose. I'm going to change the beginning weight less three pounds and take off three pounds on my current weight, I figured three because that's usually my water weight difference. Next Monday I will update for my weekly weight loss. And from now up I will update weekly on Monday. I'm keeping up with one of my March Goals. :D

Yesterday's workout was pretty awesome. I did 50 minutes on the stationary bike, it said I burned 377 calories. Booyah! After that I worked out my arms. Then did 2 sets of 10 obliques. I thought my hamstrings would be more sore now but they aren't sore at all.

Well I didn't make it to the gym. My knee actually hurt worse as I tried to move around on it. I'm putting cold on it right now. Hopefully I'll be able to do something at the gym after church. If I can even go to gym, my knee hurts that bad.

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - All Bran, raisins, cup of 2 % milk (5 pts)

Mid-day snack - Banana (2 pts)

Lunch - Chili (3 1/4 pts) Chicken mushroom spinach salad with ranch (8 pts)

Dinner - Pizza Hut Organic sausage pizza with mushroom (11 pt/slice) 2 slices, Small dinner salad (3 pts)

Socializing is Fun

Yesterday I did go to the gym. I had a couple of times when my heart felt like it was beating fast but I felt well enough to go. No more excuses right... I did the bike for about 40 minutes and then did 35 crunches on the ab machine with 50 pounds on it! While I was on the bike I had a small chat with two lovely ladies. One of them was a retired OB nurse and the other is a teacher who is about to retire. I could've done more reps but I was so hot and sweaty and I felt a little rushed to go meet my folks for dinner. I skipped working on my arms and just took a shower and went to Cracker Barrel for dinner. I got the grilled steak salad....it was soooo good. And I was completely full after that.

My weigh in last night was much more satisfying, 306.9. I do honestly believe that eating sunflower seeds after working out was making me retain fluid for my weigh in. This morning it was 3 pounds less, so I'm happy with the way my body is dealing with my water weight...for now. I'm starting to feel a little worn down with my will power. I just feel so, blah all the time. I know I've lost 20 pounds which is so wonderful, I mean I never thought I would be this close to the 200's ever again. But, I just wish I saw faster results. I know it's a long and slow process that takes SO much hard work...but geez. I think once I've reached 299 I'll have a renewed vitality in my will power. Nothing better to help you with your resolve than to actually reach a goal! Maybe I've been feeling this way because I've had babies on the brain. I want to have a baby so badly...and I still have a year+ to wait just from weight loss. I need to pick myself out of this slump.

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - Half a bottle of orange juice, scrambled eggs, single serving size of Special K (They were out of raisin bran), half carton of 2% milk (9 1/2 pts.)

Mid-day snack - Banana (2 pts.)

Lunch - Chinese Beef and Broccoli with steamed rice (I think it could be 9 pts.)

Mid-afternoon snack - Cheddar Sunchips (3 pts)

Dinner - 2 bowls of Gina's Three Bean crock pot chili (6 1/4 pts.) Dessert I had 1/2 a serving of Sugar free fudge dipped vanilla wafers (1 1/2 pts.)

That wasn't so bad..

My session with the trainer was much easier than I thought it would be. There was no weighing, no measuring. He just showed me the basics on how to work the stationary bike and elliptical, which I've already been doing so... And then he explained to me the importance of stretching before and after exercise whenever possible. The only new thing that I did was work my obliques. I'm not quite sure if my description is going to do it justice, but the device that he showed me to work my obliques was a metal stand with two bars, one was the base on the floor and the other was about a 45 degree angle from the base and had padding at the top and feet plates. I get on the obtuse side of the angle and put my legs flat against the padding and my feet on the plates, then I lean forward so my body makes a 90 degree angle and go back up to 180. It's crazy, I kept thinking I could fall and break my face! Then he had me turn to the side so my hip was against the pads and I did the same thing but sideways. That really worked my love handles. The soreness that I'm feeling now is mainly in the love handles and in my quads, for some reason I kept using my legs as a way of coming back up instead of using my back muscles? That's still a little confusing... But good thing is I know I worked out my butt...and I didn't even have to get on the stair stepper. Thank God! After that I got on the bike and did maybe 30 minutes. Then I did some more obliques.

My weigh in last night was only .1 pound less than the night before. Disappointing... This morning I was down .5 from the previous morning. Eh, I hope it'll be better tomorrow. Last night I was feeling so odd. My heart kept feeling like it would skip a beat every 4 or 5 beats. I think it could be that I'm off caffeine, but when I go out to lunch and get an unsweet tea...that has caffeine! I never really thought about it before because the tea we make at home is decaf. I think I'm going to stick strictly with my water bottle, even when I do go out for lunch. If I'm not feeling 100% this afternoon when I go to work out...I'll just have to skip today and have a rest day. I am not going to push myself too hard again!

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - Half a bottle of orange juice, scrambled eggs, single serving size of raisin bran, half carton of 2% milk (9 1/2 pts.)

Mid-day snack - Banana (2 pts.)

Lunch - Captain D's low cal fish with broccoli and green beans and the bread (Darn their bread...11 pts.)

Mid-afternoon snack - Cheddar Sunchips (4 pts.)

Dinner - Grilled Steak salad from Cracker Barrel with Ranch (14 pts.)

I knew this would happen

My three days of debauchery finally caught up with me. This morning my weight shot up 2.6 pounds from yesterday morning. Plus my nightly weigh in was higher too. Although I thought it would have shown up sooner. It could also be that my heavy weigh is water weight because I found out the sunflower seeds that I was eating were loaded with sodium. I mean like the whole package had 1300 mg! It's still a major dose even cut in a 1/3. That's one thing I would like to warn everyone about if they are also watching their sodium, which they would be if they're being good dieters. Do not buy Frito Lay's sunflower seeds! My husband researched it and apparently David's has the least amount of sodium that he could find. We'll see how I do tonight with my weigh in.

This morning I made a snack run to the grocery store so I could stock up at work. I've decided that I'm going to make a bigger effort to snack regularly. I bought two bags of Sunchips (cheddar and sour cream and onion flavors), a box of 10 mini bags of Curves brand butter flavor popcorn, and a big bag of David's Ranch sunflower seeds. Oh, and my hubby bought me a bundle of bananas to bring to work for my mid-day snack. I love bananas! I also bought a bottle of smart water for my workout this afternoon. My tiny pink jug, that I keep for a back up if I drink my big blue jug before the end of work, sprung a leak yesterday! Very sad, but I'll get over it. I'll just keep refilling the smart water bottle and use that for my back up.

I'm kinda nervous about my first trainer session today. He's gonna weigh me and measure me. :-\ I'm just not comfortable enough with my body around males as I would be with females. I don't know why, maybe it's a modesty thing, or maybe I don't want to feel unattractive to them? Who knows!

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - Half a bottle of orange juice, scrambled eggs, single serving size of raisin bran, half carton of 2% milk (9 1/2 pts.)

Mid-day snack - Banana (2 pts.)

Lunch - Grilled Salmon Caesar salad from Logan's with ranch and unsweet tea. (No idea, there is no nutritional info for Logan's anywhere!)

Mid-afternoon snack - David's Ranch sunflower seeds (3 pts.)

Dinner - Turkey meatloaf with sauteed zucchini and pureed cauliflower (14 pts.)

Brrrrr...It's cold

Yesterday my day at the gym went well. I did 40 minutes on the stationary bike, random hill program set at level 9 out of 20. I decided to do the bike for twice as long and refrain from the treadmill so that I can read my book. It's quite difficult to read while you're walking fast on a treadmill.

The book that I'm reading right now is called "You Are Not What You Weigh" by Lisa Bevere. It's mainly about a spiritual way to be happy with your body image. The last chapter that I was reading was quite interesting. She said that when we look at today's society's view on the perfect woman, the image of this woman is an idol that we worship. We hold ourselves to her standards, so we want to be like her which is...idolizing. Hello!! It made perfect sense to me, but that's all I'm going to say about that.

Back to the workout. After the bike I did leg weight machines, and abs. And then, just for funsies, I did the elliptical for 5 minutes straight without stopping. FIVE minutes! That's like a new record for me! I was so proud of myself. I had planned on doing 10 but I started burning bad and got winded, so 5 was long enough. Also last night I talked to the front desk at my gym about setting up a free training session. You get 6, I think, free sessions when you sign up. I wanted to have a female trainer to work out with but all of them work in the morning. The latest one that stays leaves at 1 in the afternoon! So I had to schedule a dude. I hope he doesn't mind training fat chicks. My first appointment is tomorrow at 4. I'm a little nervous. I hope he doesn't push me too hard. Or let me rephrase that, I hope I don't push myself too hard in an attempt to impress the trainer or because I'm stubborn and won't stop or because I want to seem in better shape than I am. Wish me good luck!

Today I've eatten:
Breakfast - Half a bottle of orange juice, scrambled eggs, single serving size of raisin bran, half carton of 2% milk (9 1/2 pts.)

Mid-day snack - Large-ish Banana (3 pts.)

Lunch - Cup of cheddar broccoli soup from McAlister's (I know I know), Grilled Chicken Caesar salad with ranch, and unsweet tea with sweet 'n' low (Don't know, I'd guess 10-12 maybe)

Mid-evening snack - Frito Lays Ranch sunflower seeds (1/3 of a small bag, say 1 1/2 pts.)

Dinner - Two chicken breast sandwiches on honey wheat bread, with lettuce, 2% milk cheese, and FF mayo (To be added later)

Ugh...

As mentioned in my previous post, I pigged out on my birthday. But not only on that day, I also ate cookie cake, and other things, for two days after it. So there's about two and a half days were I wasn't on my diet. And I didn't work out because my husband got me sick with bronchitis, and you can all imagine working out when it's hard to breath. I've been taking antibiotics so I'm feeling better. Sunday was my first true day back on track. We went to church in the morning, which was a first for us but it won't be a last. And after that we went to the gym. I felt rather accomplished that day. I have however gained 2 to 3 pounds back as punishment for my days of leisure. I intend to lose them by the end of the week if I can. For some reason I seem to be gaining less and less water weight throughout my day. My morning weights are heavier but my evening weights are about the same every night. I wonder why...

Oh I almost forgot! I've posted my February measurements on the side bar. I must say I'm rather proud of the results. A total lose of around 11 inches. I lost FOUR inches off my waist!!! I was just tickled pink when I saw that. Now if I could just get more inches off my hips...

Whew! It's my Birthday!!!

That's right, you read that title correctly. It's my birthday!!! I'm gonna party like it's 1984! Well not really, because then I was just a gooey twitching pile of baby in the hospital. But you get the idea. I've decided that I'm not going to count calories today. I will try to make the best decisions as I see fit, but I'm not going to sacrifice on my birthday. For all the Catholics out there, consider this my Fat Tuesday. Oooo I'll have to get a piece of king cake. I've been craving some so bad. I'll post about all my eating later.

I haven't worked out since Tuesday. Yesterday I was starting to feel sick, like the hard to breathe phlegmy kind of sick. I blame my husband for having bronchitis. I came home from work two hours early and took one of his pills and went to sleep. I slept for two hours in the living room recliner and then went and slept another two hours in my bedroom. It's crazy when you wake up at 7 at night and I'm like whoa...I slept that long?! I'm feeling better today, but I'm still not going to work out. We're going out of town this weekend to see my father-in-law for his birthday. I'm a little nervous about it because both my father-in-law and his girlfriend smoke and my husband and I both are sick with a respiratory infection. Those two together do not make me very happy. He said he'll talk to his dad about not smoking while we're there. I wonder how well that's gonna work. Anyways...tata! Have a great day everybody!!!

Eh kinda day...

Yesterday I did end up going to the gym. My husband asked me if I felt okay and I felt great so he said he wouldn't mind. He's sick right now so I think he really didn't care. I did 20 minutes on the stationary bike and tried to do 20 minutes on the treadmill but I got winded so I stopped after 10. I did some leg weight machines and worked on my abs. I was so tired and hungry after that I didn't even bother to take a shower before I went home. I went by Wendy's and got a cup of chili to snack on before I made dinner. Last night it was the Zucchini noodle lasagna. It wasn't done baking until around 9. I weighed 309.2 last night. :-| I think I'm starting to put on water weight for that time of the month....joy.

Tonight I plan on taking my monthly measurements. I've been nervous about this since I thought up doing it. I mean day to day weight fluctuations I can blame on water weight or having a heavy meal or something....but if I don't see results in my measurements I'm going to be so down trodden. Wish me luck!

You will not believe this...

Yesterday....I drank a Dr. Pepper. Not only did I drink one can of Dr. Pepper....I drank TWO cans of Dr. Pepper. I know, I know I said no more Dr. Peppers, but I had to. Because I gave blood!!! HA HA HA! I had all of you fooled. You thought I fell off the bandwagon. Nope, I did a good deed and needed some sugar and fluids. That was my first time to donate blood, and it was particularly fun either. I kinda had a, not really reaction but thing maybe? Basically I lost all my color started to sweat like a pig and was about to pass out. The ladies at the lifeshare are good though, they immediately knew I was lying when I said I was okay and put ice packs on me. They put a fan on me and gave me a Dr. Pepper. Bless those sweet sweet women. I sat there for some time after and talked to them. The one who actually did my blood draw was a pretty lady in her late 20's to early 30's who had seen me several times before when I came in and got my iron checked to see if I had a high enough level to give or not. Finally this time after taking iron supplements for two weeks my hematocrite was at 38 which is there limit for cut off so I could donate! Well I was telling her how I might go next door and get a quesadilla from Dilla's when I felt up to it and she said she had never eatten there before but she heard it was suppose to be healthier for you than other place even though one time a co-worker of hers got something from there and it looked greasy. So from that I guessed she was into healthy living and talked to her about my cooking WW meals, and she said be sure to drink plenty of fluids and I told her about my 2 liter bottle of water in the car. She drinks a lot of water too, because she had gastric bypass in October of '07! Crazy! She was telling me how horrible it was. She gets sick all the time even though she eats the right foods. She can't throw up when she gets sick so she just dry heaves for half an hour. Then she told me about all of her loose skin that was suppose to be removed and they had to cancel the surgery because she won't stop losing weight! I wish that was my biggest problem! She also told me about how she had to have an iron infusion because she doesn't use a large portion of her intestines which is were all the minerals and vitamins and nutrients are obsorbed into the body. And she said most people who have bypass surgery lose their gal bladder. Can you just imagine? I've heard about what happens to you after you lose the gal bladder, it isn't pretty. Nobody ever tells you about the bad parts of gastric bypass until it's too late. Well I am SO glad I met her. Even though I'm getting this weight off the right way it would've been so easy for me to take the easy way out and get lap band or bypass. Man did I make the right choice.

Needless to say after giving yesterday I did not work out. I did however want to work out today because I feel fine but my hubby isn't comfortable with me doing that just yet. I might sneak in some home workout before he gets in. No cardio though, I'm not that crazy. Last night I weighed 304.5. I can't believe it. That is so AWSOME!! Maybe I can make it to 300 before February's over. That's pushing it I know but a girl can dream can't she?

*Yawns*

I am so tired this morning. It feels like I can barely keep my eyes open. I only stayed up til 10:30 last night! I feel like such an old lady now. To bed at 10 and up at 6. My hubby and I did mostly good this weekend. We worked out on both Saturday and Sunday. Yesterday he had me do my arms...bleh. I haven't been working them since I don't care to have big arms and MAN am I weak! I could only do like 20-35 pounds on most of the stuff. I'm a little stiff today but nothing seriously bad. We were bad for lunch on Sunday though. We went to Chili's. I got the Chili's classic sirloin. 8oz. with an herb butter sauce, broccoli and sauteed mushrooms to go with it. I feel remorseful for my strayed ways. Guess I'm going to have to be even more strict with myself now. For dinner we were good. We made turkey meatloaf. Added some shredded carrot and celery for filler....it tasted goooood. I opened a can of sweet peas and sliced new potatoes for sides. Not sure how many points that is but I can probably look it up...not sure I want to though. Well I'm off to get breakfast...my stomach is starting to growl at me.

I feel productive

Yesterday I feel like my hubby and I got a lot done. I didn't actually get out of bed until 12:30 which is unusual for me since I've been getting up at 6 for work. When I got up I ate two roast beef sandwiches with a light coat of mayo and 2% milk cheese. I really need to buy some lite mayo. That's like the only condiment that I like and it's loaded with fat, straight fat. I remember when I was younger I would make mayo sandwiches....and I wonder how I got this way so fast. I'm off topic. After that I did the dishes that have piled up for the past three days because my husband said he would do them but he never did, so instead of nagging him and making him pissed I did it myself. Then I started another load of laundry because Saturday is our laundry day. After that we headed out for the gym. It was about 4 when we left. We worked out there until they closed at 6. I did 20 minutes on the stationary bike with the random hill program at level 9. Then I tried to do 20 minutes on the treadmill with an incline of 4.5 and speed of 2.5, but I only make it about 13 minutes because I gave up. Not the best mentality I know, I'll have to do extra today. Then we did weights for the rest of the time. My hubby wanted me to focus strictly on my legs so I can work on one muscle group in a day. I still did my abs too, and my triceps. When we got back home I cooked spaghetti squash with meat sauce for dinner. And after that we put all of our laundry up. Whew busy day. Last night was the first night that I've been below 309! I weight 308.6. WOOO!

Weight Update

Yes that's right. That weight up there on that ticker has been updated. It says 311. THREE ELEVEN!!! I can't believe it. 17 pounds down. But I won't get a big head...I still have a long way to go. And I will stay at it with an increased vigor.

Last night my husband and I tried a new recipe from a different website than Gina's. It was....different. Beefy noodles in sour cream sauce. I'm not used to V-8 juice or I think I would've enjoyed it more. It wasn't bad, just different. I think tonight I might make spaghetti squash. Mmmmm.

Last night at the gym I did 20 minutes on the bike at level 8 out of 20 and I did 20 minutes on the treadmill at an incline of 4.5 and a speed of 2.3 to 2.5. I was a little more tired on the treadmill since I did it last. After cardio I did weights. I'm rather proud of myself. I did two sets on each machine and then did another rotation on the machines with one to two more sets. And I'm not even sore. W00t!

Feelin' Good

Yesterday I went to the gym after work. I did a half an hour on the stationary bike. I started doing the one that looks like a real bike instead of a paddle boat type bike, and man does my butt hurt. The bottom of my hips bones feel like they're bruised, I'll probably just do the treadmill for cardio today. After the bike I did weight machines. I worked everything. Triceps, abs, hamstrings, glutes, quads, I mean everything. I tried focusing with more reps on my abs and triceps. I so want to tone away my belly and lunch lady arms. My next measurement day is coming up soon. Next week! I can't decide if I want to measure before, on, or after my birthday. If it's bad news I don't want it before or on, but if it's good news it would be a perfect birthday present. My morning weight was amazing (307.6) but I still feel like I can't count that. My nightly weight yesterday was 310.6, it still shocking me how I can lose 3 pounds of water weight in my sleep.

Wooo hoooo!!

Since the last time I posted a lot has happened! Well my husband went to the gym for the first time in two weeks because I made him get off his lazy butt and go workout, and he got my membership card from the guy at the front desk!!! I was shock/stunned to say the least, but I was also a little PO'd because I had spent the last two weeks trying very hard to get everything done so I could get into the gym and it was as easy as going in and asking for my card. Well poop. But YAY! Anyways, I've only worked out for one day (yesterday) and I took it easy. Half an hour on the bike and some crunch machine and triceps machine and back machine. Then I got called back to work! But that's another story. Today I had my stress test. It went great. He skipped the first couple of stages and put me straight into third (I think). First one I was doing was fine, second one okay this is tougher I'm feeling it more finding it a little harder to breathe, third one OMG man stop this thing I can't run!!! I believe that was stage five. Which I did about five seconds worth. He said my heart acted normally, it went up gradually with increased difficulty on the treadmill and it came down as I rested. So I'm all cleared to go with him, but I don't care if my primary care has to say because I have my membership and I will go to the gym tonight.

On a side note, has anybody noticed their weight drop like 3 or 4 pounds as soon as they start their period? I mean I knew I was retaining water, but damn. Anyways, down to 310!!! But I won't post that on the ticker until I'm done with my period at the end of the week. Then it will be official.

Valentine's

I was kinda bad on Valentine's day. My husband and I went to eat Valentine's dinner on Friday night because we knew we wouldn't be able to get in anywhere on the day of. We ate at Outback, one of his favorite places. For appetizer we go the half chicken quesadilla which was LOADED with cheese, I mean lots of cheese. I got a 9 oz. Outback Special with garlic mashed potatoes and Caesar salad. The next day for a late lunch we went to eat at Red Lobster. We had the lobster seafood spinach and artichoke dip for an appetizer. I got the broiled seafood platter with buttery scallops, shrimp scampi, and stuffed flounder and broccoli and a Caesar salad. That's not all! Later that night he gave me a small box of a Whitman sampler. It only had five pieces of chocolate, so that's not too bad. I ate the coconut filled one and half of the milk chocolate bar with the little dutch boy and sampled the rest with a small bit. He made me eat another bite of the last one. At least for dinner we ate something good. I made Zucchini Lasagna. It was soooo good. Not that hard to make either.

Finally!

Friday at work I spent most of the day dealing with the insurance company again. I found out that my pre-cert was denied because you can only have nuclear imagining if you have an EKG that is unreadable or you fail the stress test. Which I've had neither because I have YET to have my stress test. Anyways! I called the nurse at the cardiologist and tell her this and she said do you want to just do the stress test and if you can't finish it then you can get the imagining? Um YES! I thought all I needed to do was the freaking treadmill, but noooo! The cardiologist wanted to get this imagining done and that's what's been making me miss two weeks at the gym. Bastard! I'm over it...maybe. So my stress test is scheduled for Tuesday morning! Finally! I have no idea how long it will take to get the results but I'm going into the that test saying that I want the results faxed to my primary care physician as soon as they're done. I refuse to wait anymore!

I am so sick of this!

Yesterday was another rope-a-dope day with the medical insurance industry. I talked to the lady at the cardiologist office and she said that she had scheduled the stress test for today, then she said that the nurse at my primary care's office said she just put in for the pre-cert and it might not be in be ready by the time they need it. So I call my insurance company and ask them if there's a way to speed it up and they say no you need to call this other company that deals with pre-certs before us. So I get that company's number and call them and ask if there's a way to speed things up and they just say no. I call the lady at my cardiologist's office at the end of the day and she hasn't heard from the nurse at my primary care's office so they don't have the pre-cert number. So that's ANOTHER canceled stress test. I'm really starting to hate the field that I work in just because of insurance. I'm calling the pre-cert company right now to see if they have it yet. Yeah right...

Meals

So for the past three nights my husband and I have done excellent on our WW recipes for dinner. The first night we cooked turkey stuffed zucchini. Second night I cooked spaghetti squash with meat sauce, which was SO delicious! My husband loved the meat sauce so much I told him he could take it to work and make sloppy joe sandwiches out of it for lunch. Hehe. And last night he made turkey meatloaf, I made some instant mash potatoes to go with it. And I prepared some crock pot turkey chili to put on to cook this morning! Everything has been so good so far, my only complaint is the smell. And it's not even really a complaint from me it's from my mom. When we're cooking the smell makes her feel sick because she's not eatting it and it's so strong. When I wake up in the morning and walk into the kitchen I can smell it but it disapates quite fast. As I was messing with my bangs this morning I could smell that smell on my hands...and I've washed them several times since cooking last night. Makes me wonder what I could do to help with the smell....

Grrrr

I am so PO'd! I got up at 6:30 this morning to get to the hospital by 7 for my stress test. Well when I get in the lady at admissions is saying how in my records it says make sure that patient has gotten pre-cert. What the hell?! I can't even get a pre-cert even if I wanted to that has to come from the doctor. They let me be admitted and then made me wait for two hours while they tried to get the pre-cert. There was some confusion as to who needed to get it, my primary care physician as he's the one who ordered it or my referred cardiologist. Well my cardiologist's office tried to get the pre-cert but that didn't get it. So I got up early and abstained from eatting for no reason at all. BLAH! I'm mostly bummed because I was all nervous and now I have to go through it again. And I have to wait even LONGER to start exercising at the gym.

On a good sidenote, my husband and I have actually gone grocery shopping and bought all kinds of good stuff to make the recipes on Gina's Weight Watcher Recipe blog! We made turkey stuffed zucinni halves last night. YUM YUM! Tonight I'd like to make the Squash spaghetti with meat sauce. Mmmmm.

Aight

I actually stood up to what I said. I actually did my exercises last night. I didn't do them the night before because I went to bed at 7:30. I was exhausted for some reason. But last night I did my exercises from the chiropractor. So I'm happy with myself. Although yesterday I was kinda bad with my food choices. For lunch I ate beef and broccoli Chinese style, with all of those bad sauces even if that restaurant only uses vegetable oil. And I ate all of my fried rice. Them for dinner I ate a Reuben sandwich with turkey instead of corned beef and no sauerkraut. And there were Cajun fries....I ate many of them. OH and my evil husband made me drink a half a 16 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper. He kept reading the label saying...If you drink half of this then you'll get so and so calories, if I drink the whole thing then I'll get so much sodium, blah blah blah! Tempter!!!

Frustrated

I'm starting to slip back into my old habits. Not being able to go to the gym is making me so depressed. I keep stepping on the scale two to three times a day just to watch the numbers go up and down. I've tried to call the cardiologist's office to get my stress test scheduled twice now and yesterday they said "Amy" will call you when she gets to your information and she's only in on Mon. Wed. and Fri. Bleh. So I trying calling again just now and they said she'll call you when she can. BLEH! If I had at least a day in mind as to when my stress test will be at least I could look forward to that and start psyching myself up. But nooooo. I know even after I have the test done it'll probably take a couple of weeks before the results come in. Le sigh. I'm going to do my exercises at home tonight. I WILL do my band exercises and crunches! I won't let all of my progress be thrown away! I WILL get out of this funk!!!

Bleh...Just BLEH!

So today was my appointment with my primary care doctor about the whole high heart rate thing. He thinks that since my heart rate was elevated for over an hour after the end of my exercise that a stress test would be the best idea. I don't much disagree. The only part that I hate is not being able to work out at the gym until I have the stress test done. He won't sign my medical release form until I get the stress test done. So bleh. When the nurse at his office tried to call the hospital that I work at to schedule the stress test they were asking her tons of questions so she said it would be best if I scheduled the appointment myself. I call to make the appointment and they tell me that I have to have a cardiologist who my primary had referred me to. Which is what she was trying to tell the nurse at my doc's office. Sheesh. Anyways, I got a list of cardiologists that work at my hospital to give to my doctor's office so they could set up a referral. Jill, the girl at the front desk who I see all the time at Shoney's, told me she would take care of it. Have to remember to call for a follow up on that tomorrow. The longer I have to wait the more time I spend away from the gym. According to my doctor I've lost 11 pounds on his scale since October. Woo! He was thrilled. My Potassium is doing fine and my protein level in my urine is down almost half from my last 24 hr urine. Wooo! Now just a waiting game.

Scary Moment

Last night I went to workout at the gym alone. My hubby is feeling sick and my friend/boss decided against trying the water cardio class since she had a rough emotional day. So I tried the class by myself. It was fun-ish, longer than I expected...an hour. And I didn't feel like I had gotten enough of a workout. So I soaked in the hot tub since I had a sore neck from the chiropractor's and then I took a hot shower. Well after all that I was kinda boiling hot red faced sweating. I cooled off some when I went to brush my hair. Then I worked out on some of the weight machines: abs, quads, hamstrings, back, triceps, biceps. Only 20 reps each one. I thought I was fine, but when I went to get the stuff out of my locker I felt like my heart was beating into my throat. I called to say I was coming home and drove home the whole time feeling that weird feeling. I took my BP when I got there and it was 112/84 pulse 114. Then I took my own pulse 116. Then I asked my husband to check it since he was an EMT for 12 years. He said it was 158! I said nah uh! Then he redid his math and it was 120. I got a good chewing out for working myself too hard. He was really scared. Told me my heart beat wasn't at a normal rythm and was way too fast. Although my heart rate is usually 90's to 100 this did scare me some. So I made an appointment to see my doctor on Monday to discuss this. Until then I think my husband has put a lock stop on my exercises. I'm not sure that I disagree with him that much. Maybe Sunday I can try some weights. BP as of 2 minutes ago: 119/78 pulse 95.

Thinking...

So I've been reading another weight loss journal (And so the journey begins....) and she has this list of gifts she's going to give herself when she reaches certain goal weights. I think that's a FANTASTIC idea! So what should I put on my list? Shopping for clothes most definitely. But there is the question of how much paycheck will be left in the 2 weeks when I lose that weight. Usually I would want food oriented goals. Hmmm...temptations. I'll really have to think about this.

Stupid Pizza Hut

Last night I swam as planned and it was fun but also productive. After swimming in the pool for an hour my husband and I were starving so I said why don't we go get the natural pizza from Pizza Hut? It's 11 pts. per slice and it's darn good. Well when we go both of us got the salad bar and when the pizza came out it was the wrong crust!!! Their normal bleach white flour kind...bleh! I would have sent it back but we were hungry so I went ahead and ate two slices...I know bad me. But at least this morning we got up at 6 and went to the gym. I rode the stationary bike for half an hour, that's 8 miles!! I plan on riding it again tonight when we go again.

Whew I feel it!

Yesterday was my first real workout at the gym. I did have a chiropractor's appointment too, but they just had me do cervical exercises which is all upper body. When I got to the gym I tried to elliptical again and made it for 4 minutes straight! I must say I'm rather proud of myself. After that hellish ride I decided to do the bike. I went on a random hill for 30 minutes. After that I did some weight machines, the stirrups one in and out, the prone leg curl, the pushy uppy seated leg one, and the press. I know very technical terms. After that I went on the treadmill for a few minutes but it was getting late so I decided to leave to get home to hubby. He's been feeling sick so he didn't come with me. Today I plan on swimming! I love swimming...I wonder how many laps I can do. I may actually do some bike or treadmill before I swim.

Blah

Yesterday I did absolutely nothing. I mean...NOTHING. I sat around the house all day long and watched tv. This is the first day I've had off though since I started seriously dieting and trying to lose weight. Today I'm going to make up for it though. I have a chiropractor's appointment around 5 and then I'll be going to the gym after that around 6:30-ish to work my butt of on a treadmill or bike. I may even try the dreaded elliptical machine again! I will master you...oh yes I will elliptical.

Sounds of Queen playing in my head

Bum bum bum...another pound bites the dust...bada bum bum bum....another pound bites the dust! AND another pound down, another pound down, another pound bites the dust!!! Heh.

Today was a very fruitful day. My hubby and I went to look at the perspective gyms. He was rather impressed with them both but it was the indoor heated swimming pool that clenched it. We started our one week trial membership today. First we went in and talked to a trainer who gave him the tour. After that we went and walked at the medical mall. I walked a 1 and 1/3 miles. Then we went to go shopping and get some workout apparel for both of us. He got two pairs of sweats and I got two pairs of velvet jogging pants. * After that we went to pizza hut to try that new all organic pizza. Oh my GOSH it was delicious!!! I figured it up on a nifty gadget that Gina the WW recipe lady had that each slice was 11 pts. W00t! After that we drove back home and that's when I realized that tomorrow I had planned on doing my 24 hour urine collection so I asked hubby if he would mind if we went to do some cardio today. He said no so off we went in our new gear. I tried the elliptical machine and I almost died. I really couldn't go longer than 5 minutes on it without stopping. Sooo I went and walked on the treadmill for awhile, then I rode on the bike for a good bit. Bad me I ate two slices of pizza when we got home. 22 pts.

* So what the hell is up with Wal-Mart? Why are they carrying all of this exercise apparel for the skinnies when they know it's the fatties that need to workout? I mean really...why would someone who can already wear a size small want to go workout? GAH!

Excited

Today my husband and I are going to look at a perspective gym that we're going to join. Money wise it's the second cheapest, equipment options wise it's right up there, and they offer tons of classes throughout the day. Very nice facility and they're remodeling too. Hot tubs for male and female locker rooms, indoor heated pool, pilates and yoga studio and a spin class room. I definitely look forward to using their cardio machines.

Measurements

Oh my God....I had no idea. This is just...it's startling.

Bust: 52 inches
Waist: 53 inches
Hips: 61 3/4 inches (I died a little inside with this one)

Arms: 17 inches
Thigh: 35 inches
Calves: 20 inches

Bad Day yesterday

For some reason yesterday it felt like Friday and on Friday you don't feel like doing anything but celebrating. I did walk at the medical mall with my husband but I didn't feel like doing any of my exercises at home. And then for dinner we had wing stop. Not the healthiest of choices... It is chicken, but the way they prepare it is full of grease. I got the garlic parmesan though all the grease at the bottom of the container made me feel kinda sick. I started to go into a guilt spiral after that so I did 2 sets of 20 crunches on my balls with the 6lb. medicine ball and then went into my room to do some resistance training. I ended up doing flanks on the bed instead of the floor. And I did some fire hydrants on the bed for good measure. Trying to tone that hiney you know! I just messed around with my band I didn't really do any defined exercises. I started getting depressed thinking about how I've lost 10 pounds but 6 of those were gone before I even noticed or started trying. But then, this morning...I got on that scale and it said I was another pound lighter! That lifted my spirits for sure. I won't update anything until I weigh tonight to keep the scale right. Feeling a bit...chipper now.

Iron...

So today at work they had the lifeshare blood bus come. I tried to donate but when they checked my iron from a finger prick my count was a 37...ONE point too low for them. Then when I was walking out the nurse at the front of the bus was telling me to eat more beans or raisins. And I'm thinking to myself, I do eat raisins...I eat them every morning when I eat my raisin bran! Oh well, I'll try going to the blood center tomorrow.

Sleepy....Sore

Today I took the stairs at work like 10 times...at least I think it was that many times. And then I went to the chiropractor and did my workout. For some reason I think I always work harder in front of the ladies there. Maybe it's the fact that I start off with a warm up on a bike. Today I did the bike for 6 minutes instead of 5. Stickin' it to the expensive man!

Exercises

I think it's time for me to actually put down in pixel my workout routine. Let's see how this goes.

Walking at the medical mall: 1 mile approx. 25-30 min.
Resistance band exercises: Arm and leg approx. 12-15 min.
Crunches: 1 set of 20 on the floor, 1 set of 20 on the ball with a 6lb. medicine ball approx. 10 min.
Floor exercises: Forearm push ups (?) approx. 6 min.
Strengthening exercises: Squats and Lunges approx. 12-15 min.

Expenses

So I've been thinking about joining a gym or something. I just need access to some gym equipment for more than 5 minutes that I'm on the bike at the chiropractors. My husband wants us to buy an elliptical machine, but with us still sharing a home with my parents I doubt we have room. I wanted to wait until we were settled and had our own apartment or home. So a gym membership seems to be the easiest solution, but when you think about it the cost of a gym membership for one year could PAY for a home machine. Dilemmas, dilemmas.

Pondering

I wonder when everybody else weighs themselves. I mean I usually weigh myself at night because I am NOT a morning person. But lately here this past weekend and the last couple of days I've checked in the morning. There is about a three to four pound difference. I know that it's fluid that my body is holding onto from my activities during the day, but which one is considered more accurate? If I could be the weight that I am in the morning then WOOOO! But that wouldn't be accurate compared to my beginning weight. I don't know what I weighed that morning that I went to the doctor, so perhaps I'll stick with the evening weigh.

Bad Me

Last night I was so exhausted when I posted about the 50millionpounds website. I just had so much floating around in my head that I wanted to get out. One thing I wanted to talk about was my new shoes. I went to Academy last Friday to buy some much needed workout equipment (resistance bands, small weight ball, exercise ball, and yoga mat). Well I've been needing a new pair of sneakers for the longest time. I've been using those rubber clogs to walk and workout in. Comfortable, but not the most effective means. So I find a cheap pair at $20 and I decide to buy them. Oh my SWEET Lord! After the first time I walked in them they had rubbed both of my Achilles' heels raw! On my right foot I had a blister the size of the end of my pinky sticking off of my Achilles' heel. I toughed it out wearing band aids and moleskin on top of them, but now I'm developing red skin with deep blisters next to the bottom joint on my big toes. So no more! Today I'm wearing my old shoes, the ones that have a hole in the top side and they feel like I'm walking on clouds! I love you old shoes...I'll never take you for granted again.

50millionpounds

About a week ago I joined this new effort by Dr. Ian from Celebrity Fit Club and State Farm to get Americans to lose 50 million pounds. It's a pretty good website. You keep track of all of your meals so there's accountability, you can also keep track of your activity. There's this kit that you can pick up that has a pedometer so you can enter your amount of steps for an equivalent time.

Stairs...

So stairs...are evil. They make my knees hurt something fierce. I mean it's also like a pysch-out thing too when you can hear your own cartilage and bone crickle and crackle. Yes I did just make up a word. Just came up one flight of stairs carrying a tool bag, my heart started pounding a little. That's a little scary, I think I need to do more cardio. My co-worker and friend Debbie has a rule of thumb when it comes to the stairs. "I never take the stairs if I'm carrying something." Sounds better and better to me all the time. I wonder if anyone's knee has ever actually broken because they were so heavy and tried to climb a step...

Grand Opening for "My Rough Road"

Hello everyone, and welcome to watching me be in misery. Not that I want to be out of misery because I'm doing this to myself. The time had finally come in my life where I could no longer put it off. I'm fat and I can't live like this anymore.... Wow that felt really liberating. This most recent bought of healthy conscience was brought on by the talk of my husband and I having children. I do want to have babies, but I am so terrified at the thought that I won't be able to care for them because I'm too out of shape. My husband is even more worse off than me, he's put his body through years of torment as a firefighter, an EMT, and working at the race track. With his shoulder, neck, back, and knee injuries I just know he wouldn't have been able to keep up with a two year old. And God forbid that our child would have to lose one, or both, of their parents. That would be something that I could never forgive myself for. And who wants a tormented soul lingering about?! Nobody that's who.

My weight loss journey actually began before I had even noticed. I started going to the chiropractor last December. My chiropractor is different from most because they also do physical therapy to help build your muscle in a way that will hold the new adjustments like they're meant to be held. Now even with drinking Dr. Pepper non-stop and eatting pretty much whatever I wanted to I still managed to lose weight! Around the new year we went to visit my husband's mother and that's when the major baby talk started. Hence, the beginning of my effort on my journey.


First-ish December 328 lbs.

First-ish January 322 lbs.