I do apologize

For the past several days I've been the world's worst at posting. Being sick is no excuse but it's all I got. I was sick, and hubby was out of town visiting his dad so I was a little depressed. Not to mention the eating...yes it was bad. Very, very bad. I ate a potato from Mcalister's for lunch on Saturday, spud max...the worst one for you. Then for dinner I ate pizza. Then Sunday for lunch I ate pizza, Sunday for dinner I ate pizza. There's still pizza in the fridge. I felt so guilty, but guilt isn't going to get me anywhere but into a shame spiral which will cause more depression. No more guilt I tell you. I have to get over it and move on. So today is me getting back on track. Healthy point counting eating and the gym after work. Oh that's another thing I haven't gone to work or the gym since last Thursday. I didn't even work out then I just used the steam room. But I'm moving on! Even with ALL this my Monday weigh in was still nice to me. I broke 300! 298.8. That's even with my monthly curse coming to visit.

I've been seeing a lot of people posting about their WW meetings and such, I feel like I'm missing out myself. I don't have that accountability of getting up infront of a group of people with the same goal as me and getting up on that scale. But does it make me stronger in the end if the only person I'm accountable to on the scale is me? Won't that help me more in my maintenance stage? I just wish that I had a close friend who was going through the same thing that I am. My boss/friend Debbie is trying to lose weight, but she's a tiny short 130. She always says that when she's around me it makes her want to be good, but I'm not sure how to feel about that. We occassionaly make it to the gym at the same time, but we don't work out together. It's not anything like a support buddy who tries to push you. If anything I'm always the one pushing her. I would invest in a trainer but so far I've heard that they aren't worth the money. Oh what to do, what to do.

Today I've Eaten:
Breakfast - (I was STARVING this morning) Scrambled eggs, sausage patty, raisin bran, whole carton of 2% milk (11 pts)

Mid-day snack - Cheddar Sunchips (3 pts)

Lunch - Roasted chicken breast on 6 inch wheat with mayo spinach and provolone cheese (9 pts) sour cream and onion Sunchips (5 pts)

Mid-afternoon snack - Curves 90 calorie mini bag of butter popcorn (1 pt)

Dinner - Spaghetti squash with meat sauce (5 pts)